The day has finally come!!!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow i will officially be a mommy! I cant even believe it. When i was heading to the doctor this morning i was ready for a battle. I have been suffering from an enormous and horrible rash all over my body i have not slept in 3 days because it is so itchy and it burns. It is not contagious or anything its actually called PUPPPS. It is basically and allergic reaction to your skin stretching. There is no cream or pill that can help with the itching and the only cure is to deliver the baby! So i have been living with this for 2 weeks and my doctor said he would not induce me just because of that. So on my way to the doctor this morning i was ready to put up a fight. 37 weeks is a full term baby! And yes there are risks just as with any girl going into labor. But i physically could not deal with this rash any longer. It is spreading rapidly and the bumps are getting bigger, Also i can not go another couple weeks without sleep. That just cant happen. I cry all the time because i am so emotional and running off no sleep. So anyway on with the story. Last doctor appointment my doctor was pretty insistant on not inducing me at all. So last night at around 3 or 4 in the morning i was praying so hard that there would be good news from the doctor. Well so i went in and i ended up having really high blood pressure 140/98. Which through most of this pregnancy it has been 120/60 or lower. So that was really high for me. Also i was diagnosed with Preclampsia. So my doctor said, medically he is allowed to induce me at anytime now. He said he really wishes i could make it one more week and i sat there for a minute and almost started crying because i knew physically that i could not make it a whole other week! So he told me of all the cons of inducing my baby at 37 weeks, but then said honestly Winter it is a risk but with your first baby it will even be a risk at 41 weeks. So i told him to put me on the list for tomorrow to be induced but that Chance and i wanted to go home and pray and talk about it and then we will call and let him know what we decided.

So Chance and i left and talked about it and we were so relieved and there was like a weight lifted when we talked about having our baby tomorrow. AS i got to thinking about it and pondering whether we made the right choice or not i go to thinking about last night and how i asked Heavenly Father for things to go well at the doctor, and how when i got there all these things were wrong like blood pressure and preclampsia. I think that was his way of telling me that it is ok and that we were making the right choice. So we feel really good and excited about it! Plus Chance and i have been feeling that at 37 weeks, if little Blake is going to have problems i dont think that would change even at 40 weeks. So anyway that is what happened today and how we came to the decision of being induced!

Now i want to talk about how excited i am to be a mommy tomorrow! I cant believe it is actually happening! I am a girl who has dreamt about this moment my whole life! I get to have my very own baby that i get bond with and raise and love unconditionally. I am so thankful to my Heavenly Father for trusting me to be Blakes mom. I could not ask for a better gift. I know he is just going to be a special boy. He gets to be the big brother to the rest of our kids. I know that if we raise him the way we should he will be a good example to them and will get to be someone they look up to. I am so excited to start my family with Chance. He is going to be the greatest dad and i think there is going to be a lot of moments where we are going to be fighting to hold him. I just hope that Blake can grow up to be like his daddy. I will try my hardest to instill in him the chivalry and respect that his dad has for girls. I want him to be goofy like Chance and have the passion that Chance has for life. I also would love for him to look just like his daddy! A little Chance is exactly what my little family needs!

I am so excited and nervous for tomorrow but i know the Lord will be there to help me through. Also my mom is flying in tonight so she will be with me through this whole thing. I am so thankful for that! I didnt want to go through this without her help! I am very sad that the rest of my family cant be here and meet the little buddy when he comes into this world. But i will just have to settle for a month later! Everyone with me luck and keep us in your prayers! I will post pictures after he is born! We are taking the computer to the hospital!

Outing to the ZOO!!!

So i am about ready to pop and i want this baby out and since i am just about 37 weeks and that is a full term baby, my friend Nicole asked if i wanted to go to the zoo and i immediately said yes!! Lots of hills and walking around! We had a really good time! She has 2 boys and they seemed to have a lot of fun looking at all the different animals. It was really fun getting to know Nicole to so all in all it was a really good choice! Sad part is i didnt go into labor!! Dang!!!! 3 hours straight of walking around i thought just might do it but no such luck! Here is my 37 week picture and some pictures from the zoo!! ENJOY!
Here is am just about 37 weeks! Almost there!
I love the Giraffes!!!!

This is Nicole and her 2 boys Izzy and Jensen! They are pretty cute!

I dont know what kind of bird this is but it looked cool
Of course the Elephant
We went into this building and these bats were just above our head not caged in at all!!! We were like holy cow is that even allowed??!!
This is a Volture. It was really cool

35 WEEKS!!!

Just a little update!!! I went to the doctor yesterday and i am dilated to a 2 and i am 50% Efaced!!!! Thats right little Blake is coming!!! He also said my cervix is super low which means his head is engaged and he is ready to come out. Chance and i are getting pretty excited!!! But it sure is a waiting game now!!! He has taken me off bed rest now and so i am just having to sit here and wait. I am trying to keep myself busy by preparing but since i was so excited in the beginning of my pregnancy i dont have a whole lot to do! The doctor thinks that Blake may come next week! I started laughing and said, " Dr. Haskett i want to go into labor so bad but i so badly dont want to!!!" HAHAHHA man this is really nerve wrecking!!! I think i have officially decided on getting an epideral! Why go through all that pain when i could more or less enjoy the experience of my baby coming out!!! I am also excited to have him because that means i get to see my family soon! My mom is planning on coming straight here when i call her and tell her i am in labor!!! I am super excited for that! Hopefully Macy will get to come to! I really want my dad there but i know he has to work so thats ok!! Then Jenny is coming as well and i am super excited to have Grandma Jenny meet the little man!!! Then of Course Lindsay and the kids are coming up!!!!! I am so excited!

Also everyone has been betting on when the baby comes and here are the polls:

Nan : May 22

Me: May 23

Jenny and Macy: May 24

Lindsay: May 25

Chance: May 26

Mom: May 27

We will see who wins!!! My original guess was in June but from the looks of it that will probably not happen!!! If anyone else has a guess write me and let me know

34 WEEKS!!!

I am now 34 weeks well and 1 day!!! For all of you laughing......... everyday counts!!! The little buddy is doing great and still moving like crazy! I had my appointment yesterday and found out that i am dilated to a 1 and my cervix is super soft and squishy! Yea pretty crazy! My doctor doesnt think i will go into labor today but he thinks it is soon because i am having some back labor and still having a lot of contractions. Plus he said that my blood pressure is still a concern and i am getting really really sore in my pelvic area. O and he also said that if i dont go into labor on my own soon then i will go into labor because Blake really really has no more room to go he is maxed out! HAHAHA yes my belly is huge and obnoxious!!!! It is very depressing when you are only 33 weeks and you hear people commenting to others that i look like i am ready to pop!! Sad day!!!! O and a short embarrassing story for you........ Chance and i decided to go to Chilis yesterday for lunch and they sat us in a booth............. well......... i barley fit!!!! O MY GOODNESS!!!!! My belly was being squished and the table wouldn't move!! It was pretty hilarious!

So my doctor said that i am still on bed rest this week but i can have mild activity! So what that meant to me was that i can go out and have fun!!! HAHAHA! I promised myself at 27 weeks, when the doctor told me that i am going to be on bed rest till at least 34 weeks and then he will lighten it because i will be in the safe zone, that if i stay very strict those 7 weeks then at 34 weeks i will go out and enjoy the rest of my pregnancy instead of being miserable sitting on my couch!! So i ran some errands yesterday and surprised my cute husband at work and then came home and relaxed. Today i ran to kohls to return the diaper bag i got because i decided i didn't like it. So its not like i am going crazy and not relaxing, but i am going out and rewarding myself for doing so good on bed rest!

So here are some pictures of me at 34 weeks!!! Except i cropped them and took my head off because my face is so swollen and gross!! So here you go!
Here is the belly!!!! Yep huge!!!!And there i am straight on!!! This is the shirt that Jenny got me for my birthday!!! I love it!!! And it is so much more comfortable then any other shirt i own!!!

Last week!!!

Yes last week of bed rest!!!! Well at least that is what the doctor said last Tuesday! He said when i get to 34 weeks he will lighten the bed rest and i will be able to go out and do things! He said that it is not as dangerous to have the baby at 34 weeks! He also said that 90% of babies that are born at 34 weeks will go home with their moms! So i feel a lot better! I am doing great so far just bored and really just wanting to be done with all this! It is such a bitter sweet situation. Its like i really really just want to start walking up some hills and doing everything i can to get this baby out, but then again he is my sweet little boy and i want him in there as long as possible to make sure he is healthy and strong! But i just cant wait to get him here! I want to see his eyes and touch his face and squeeze his little bum! I want him to come home and see his room and sleep on Chances chest! This process is just too freakin long! But i guess soon enough i will have Blake in my arms and be able to sing him to sleep!

OK on another note........... My little niece Brooklyn was super sick this weekend! She had Rotavirus! Poor little on was throwing up and having diarrhea and a fever for 16 hours!!! She got super dehydrated so my sister took her to the ER and she ended up being so dehydrated that she had to stay there for 24 hours! I was so worried i really didnt sleep that whole night! Funny thing is is that i knew she would be fine i was just worried about her being scared when they had to put an IV in for fluids! It was killing me! But if you want to know more and see pictures look at my sisters blog lindsayandwade.blogspot.com.

And one other thing!!! It is Lindsays birthday today!!! Happy Happy Birthday Lindsay! I just have to say that Lindsay is one of my best friends in the whole world. I love having her as a sister! It is so nice to have an older sister who can go through things before i do! Lindsay is always there to give me advice and talk me through difficult situations. She is so great at understanding both sides and calming me down when i am all flustered! She is such a great mom to my niece Brooklyn and my Nephew Weston. It is so funny because when Lindsay first got pregnant we were all a little nervous because Lindsay really didnt like kids. She never babysat and really didnt have an interest in kids! HAHAHAHA! But look at her kids they are beautiful and well behaved! I am so Proud of Lindsay and the guy she chose to marry and the way she chose to live her life! It kills me that she lives so far away form me and i hope one day we will be able to live close! Love you Lindsay!! Hope you had a great birthday!!!